-- one.

mood: Mellow. A little tired. Lonely.
listening to: Chris's Kingdom Hearts music.
reading: My IM with Tai.
watching: The time.
playing: Nothing.
eating: Nothing. I'm not hungry, and after my gums started bleeding while eating Rice Krispies earlier, food probably isn't a good idea right now, anyway.
drinking: Nothing.

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◊ one;

Yes. I decided to start writing in a separate, new blog.
My nitpicky OCD wouldn't let me continue to update on the other one, simply because I found it too disorganized.
I seem to have an annoying habit of making several fresh starts on sites like these, just to get me motivated to do something on them again. It's weird, I know, and did I also mention annoying?

So, if you want to keep up, I suggest coming to SSfraulein.blogspot.com from now on.
Donke.

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◊ two;

I suppose it's now official that, in some way or another, I am depressed.
All I can say is that I'm going to try and get through it. That's all I can do anymore.
Just like this whole Texas thing.



Karma is such a bitch.



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◊ three;

Friday, my dear Kerrington came to multimedia and introduced a new song and band to me: "Don't Stop" by InnerPartySystem. I'm not a fan of the song's meaning, but it is very catchy and I've always been a sucker for laser keyboards and dance rhythms.
I was going to look up the lyrics for it and put them up here, but it seems to me that nobody knows the actual lyrics, and there are several different versions of it posted on the Internet. So I guess that idea is moot, hm?
I suppose you can look it up on youtube or something and listen to it.

Hmm.
I like Kerrington. She's nice, very sweet.
She has a calming voice, too. x3 It does help me to calm down after five periods of stress and chaos.
I find it funny that I always try not to talk so loudly around her, because... it's almost as though she'll break if I do. She's really quiet.
... That sounds really weird, but it's true.

As for a certain Hispanic brother of mine:
Get your ass back into town. We need to talk, ASAP.
I miss you, but I don't miss you enough to get happy with you.

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◊ four;

I forgot to mention that I got spacers last Monday. For the first three or four days, they were nothing but pain and soreness, to the max. They've lightened up considerably now, though.
Still, that doesn't mean I should be a moron and try to eat hard foods, like Rice Krispies. Even trying to chew on those carefully made my gums bleed, so I guess no more of that. Jip.


Nurse: It might feel like you have some food stuck in your teeth, but it's just the rubber bands.
Me: Hm. Interesting.
Nurse: So, how're you feeling now that they're in?
Me: LIKE I'VE GOT RUBBER BANDS STUCK IN MY TEETH. WHAT DO YOU THINK?


Duh, woman.

In all truths, it doesn't feel like there is food stuck in my teeth. Now that they've stopped hurting, I barely notice the rubber bands at all, even when I eat.

I have to get braces this upcoming Tuesday morning, too, after they take the spacers out.
I've pretty much learned not to believe the adults when they say braces won't hurt. I have plenty of other kids—guys, even—who've had braces, themselves, tell me that the braces will hurt for the first week or so.
It isn't the pain that I know is coming that bothers me. I've prepared myself for that, now that I've gotten honest opinions and stories about it. The fact that I'm getting braces at all is what bothers me. I don't really care if those things are beneficial to me. I was completely fine with my crooked teeth, but... well... I suppose that's in the past now.
...
Wow... That really made me sad.

Fuck braces.
Fuck my horrible hereditary dental issues.
Just fuck overall.

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◊ five;

Nothing much has happened lately—nothing good, anyway. So of course I don't report on this place much.

This Saturday went by too quickly, and I wasted through it by moping.
I was sort of productive, though. That's good, at least.
Ugh, she'll probably drag us to church tomorrow. I absolutely loathe church, and how she tries to make us pay attention when it just bores the crap out of us. I hate religion in general.
Disgusting.

*sighs*
So much for getting some sleep tonight...